Category: relationships
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God take this pain from me
I really just want to be at the whole clothed with strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future part of my life now please. I don’t feel strong enough to survive this pain much longer. Key word there being “I”, I guess. God needs to be my strength. I need to let…
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Tea Time
How easy is it to settle into the comforts of tea time. I’m not talking about the traditional across the pond time of day to sip tea and nosh on tiny sandwiches…I’m talking about sharing gossip. We feed off of what others are sharing about others. The gossip may even come in the form of…
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Time
Speaking of schedules… Something I learned during my Covid quarantine is I need me time. My schedule leading up to quarantine was dangerously packed. And if I didn’t have anything scheduled I was almost guaranteed to have a mental breakdown. Not exactly healthy. Now I am intentional with what I schedule into my life. I…
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Losing Hope
*deep sigh* Sometimes healing doesn’t seem to be healing, it is backwards and messy and lonely. It feels like I’m not making any progress but instead I’m hurting more than I was before. Instead of progressing and working through the pain I shove it down and power through. Or shove it down and completely shut…
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People Person
I have always considered myself an introvert. Social situations have always drained me, and being by myself or with my man recharges me. On a good day I would call myself an ambivert…like a very good day. ambivert [ˈambəˌvərt] NOUN psychology a person whose personality has a balance of extrovert and introvert features But something’s…
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The Joy of the Lord
I can only describe this time as bittersweet. Today marks 77 days since my last day at work and my heart aches for my little one I take care of. I miss everything about being a pediatric care tech and am counting the seconds until I can return to work. I miss normalcy. I miss…
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Toxicity in Friendships
This isn’t the first time I’ve written about this issue, but I was a lot more guarded and gentle about it in my last post on this matter. I am currently in the process of removing a toxic friend from my life. This has been so hard. Especially since this friend is the queen of…
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I’m So Blessed!
God has given me the best relationship I could have ever asked for. It is not perfect but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. It is everything. Apparently one of my love languages is food… He makes me French omelets and has dinner ready for when I get to his house. He has the heating…
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Honesty
I’m hard wired to put others before myself. To a fault. My automatic response to “How are you?” is to immediately respond with “I’m fine.” and change the topic to the other person. I’m probably not fine. I’m most likely swimming in a sea of spastic thoughts that can’t contain or regulate themselves. But I…
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Painful Beloved 