Painful Beloved

So I get to work. Normal routine. I put my phone in my desk drawer, check my emails, reply to some emails. Normal super quiet morning in the office. All of a sudden from my desk drawer I hear, “IT’S SO FLUFFY I’M GONNA DIIIIEEEEEE!!!!” I was fiddling around with contact settings yesterday and I…

The Summer of 2013, I interviewed for a family with two kids, a boy and a girl, and we played the game Headbandz. I still remember leaving that interview feeling good. Feeling like I fit in. It was a great feeling. I got the job. When you start you don’t think about the inevitable end.…

Recently I was on a missions trip with the youth group and the question arose if the leaders (myself and four other people) have ever gone through an emo phase. I laughed clearly remembering a time where I had stretched lobes, an addiction to Hot Topic, over processed hair, and a love of heavy black…

It’s been a really rough mental battle day. Lots of thoughts swarming through my brain like a cloud of angry bees telling me life would be better if I ceased to exist. It’s been an exhausting day. I do not sleep a regular sleep schedule. It’s typically an hour here or there, not consistent, and…

I do a fantastic job at shoving all of my stress and problems into this box already packed full and overflowing with my stress and problems. But I do this so I can absorb all the stress and problems of everyone around me. I am a stress shamwow. The human stress shamwow. Soaking up stress…