Tag: ocd
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The Battle Within My Brain
I kill myself daily over and over again flipping through every single scenario in my head to figure out if I’m ruining my relationship, my friendships, my job, my family… There is a never ending investigation against myself by myself to see where I am failing, where I am falling short, where I am being…
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World Mental Health Day
It was World Mental Health Day. this past Saturday and I couldn’t leave the couch. It has been weeks of long exhausting days, mentally taxing crisis situations, faking it through required social interactions, and panic attacks for what seems like very little reason. Completely overthinking to the point of making myself physically ill. I have…
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Support System
I don’t know what I would do without my support system. My very small close knit to me circle of people is astronomically important to me. They get it. They deal with their own mental chaos as well and they don’t drop me when I accidentally go four months living as a shut in because…
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I’m Fine
One moment I’m fine. I’m happy. I’m going through my day like a normal functioning adult. I’m taking my meds, and not the emergency ones, just the maintenance ones. I can go to social functions with little difficulty. ….and the next I feel like I’m drowning, suffocating, being attacked from all sides, yet so completely…
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You Don’t Have To Live In The Pit
Oh the pit of mental disorders. Mental illnesses are nasty conniving liars. They tell you that everyone is out to get you, that the worst thing that could (or even couldn’t) possibly happen is bound to happen, they tell you that you are worthless, your life has no meaning, no worth, and no purpose, and…
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Painful Beloved 