Painful Beloved

Predicament. I believe I am where God wants me in ministry…but I am stressed out all the time because of the helicopter leadership. It’s not just helicopter leadership, it’s dishonest leadership, it’s leadership that is so overly confident despite their severe incompetence. It’s leadership that comes with harsh judgement and constantly feeling defeated. It’s exhausting. Do I stay for the other people involved and hope the leadership changes? Or do I leave?

I definitely need to prayerfully consider these options and where He has me. But more and more everyday I don’t feel good about being in this position. I realize being in ministry isn’t for me. I’m doing this for the Lord. I’m doing this to help people. I’m doing this so He can use me for Him. But everyday I feel majorly ill and so defeated because of the leadership and I don’t know what to do.